Friendship

A six and a half year burden was lifted off of my shoulders today and it's amazing how the words "I'm sorry" can mean so much. I had lunch today with a former roommate, who was once one of my very best friends and confidantes. We really haven't spoken, except for a chance meeting at Hobby Lobby, in more than six years. Our relationship splintered at a time when we were both in the midst of life-changing decisions and although neither one of us can recall exactly what happened, we went from constant companions to relative complete strangers. The loss of our relationship (along with that of another friend) completely devastated me. I have never, ever been so lonely and so confused. Looking back, it was a mixture of immaturity and miscommunication and everyone involved was at fault, but back then - I just couldn't fathom what I had done so wrong to make my best friends turn away from me in what I felt was a dire time of need. The hurt I felt from that life experience has followed me through the years, and although time has healed so much, I have unfortunately continued to hold that in my heart. I am so thankful to say that today is a new day. Not only do I feel a sense of validation, I also feel hope for our future...and I look forward to having her in my life once again.